Remember that time when being awkward was cool? It lasted a whole seven days; then people went back to following the “IT GIRL.” You see, I was always awkward. I have done a pretty good job at masking it, but from time to time you will catch me in my natural state.
Being awkward is more than responding to common situations weirdly, it is also stressing over the reason why others do not react the same way you do. Each of my friends will collectively say, “Chardline is so awkward, but I love her though.” Moreover, as I grew older, I realized that being awkward is not such a bad thing—it is a great thing. While everyone is crying at a scene from Titanic, I still find solace in knowing that if I were on that ship, I would not have to pay my student loans anymore–I would be at peace.
Does that mean I am savage? Nah, it just means that I process things differently. I am writing this post not only to show off my dope fedora from Kuronne, but to encourage everyone to be the best version of yourself. We live in a time where our quirks and personalities are not celebrated. In fact, we are invited to be more like sheep than a flock of diversity.
Some days I wish I were normal. Sometimes I think to myself, “If I were less awkward, I would finally get the guy.” Alternatively, my favorite, “If I were less awkward, I would be able to express myself better instead of joking about matters that were serious to me.” However, God made me this way for a reason, and I am gonna let it fly.
However, don’t get me wrong be awkward is probably what led me to all of my accomplishments today. Too many to name but one of my favorites is my relationship with my nephew. No one in the family understands why we are as close –and I think it’s because awkwardly, we understand each other. 20 years apart and he’s the only person I can connect with in my house.
So today, celebrate the things about yourself that you’ve been trying to hide. Learn to embrace those things about yourself, too. Issa Rae did it when she first wrote The Mis-Adventures of Awkward Black Girl, and now look where she is! AN AWKWARD BOSS! Jesse Eisenberg is my #MCE and I think it’s because he’s a pretty awkward guy himself.
See we are not all that strange!
Which Kuronne hat best represents you?
Til next time, Char!